Day Five Total: 20,236 words so far

I'm tired, but I had a nap earlier today. So I'm not really as tired as I have been. Because of NaNoWriMo I think I've been up until almost two in the morning every day this month. It's kind of crazy and throwing my sleep patterns out of whack.

I have a pretty amazing writing day today, buoyed by Write or Die, and the fact that I seem to have better writing days on odd days. I say better in that it doesn't feel like it's taking as long to get places. I don't suspect that my writing is actually better, and there isn't that much difference in my word counts, really. I mean, to get 20k on day five means that I'm averaging 4k a day. That's pretty decent (and twice what I intended to accomplish).

I'm really pushing myself this first week, though, I'm feeling very afraid of falling behind in word count. I don't really know why. Clearly I'm more than twice as far as the minimum at this point. For some reason I'm slightly terrified of getting to day 15 and not being 30k through. I feel like I have to be more than halfway through by the halfway mark.